Guilty as charged

glitters in the air

2012-01-31T16:34:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to Siti Nurul Jannah.

She ate too much chocolates and created a nice post on my fb wall.

So to return the diabetes, I decided to create a blogpost.

:B <- my evil face.

Well, these are all for memories purposes.

Because I found it sweet and I wanna keep it somewhere I can easily look for.

why the bigger picture of me is with my face blur one?

*throw rocks at you* cause you rock, jannah.

It was nice receiving this in the morning.

As I have always said, I'm here, there and pretty much everywhere for you.

I always want you to do the best and be the best in whatever you do.

& of course, I have to motivate you right?

*throw hearts at you*

I hope you get blinded by my love. HAHA.

Love you la, nana! (I like calling you this)

Because it's like I'm calling you this:

I hope everything goes well with you.

& if it doesn't, you know where you can find me.

Probably under a lemon tree.

Okay, that last line was completely random.

Well, okay that means my whole post is completely random because I'm just typing whatever comes to mind.

Retarded and awesome at the same time.

What better pair than us?

that riddle to which there was no answer.

2012-01-30T17:22:00.001+08:00

I decided to dig deep and go through my old photos of this blog!

Reminiscence!

You guys are in for a treat! A picture of me and Trisha - Pri 6.

HAHAHAHA. Sorry Trisha, if you ever read this.

Sec 1 I think.

WHO REMEMBERS THIS PERIOD OF TIME? HAHAHA

Little girls, we were.

Because I like how I look at the pilot.

This one was taken because of some module amazing race.

I don't know who edited this though.

Hehe, that's all.

I didn't wanted to post a lot of these old times.

Okay I have many diaries!

SO I find them almost everywhere lying around my house.

There's something written in it there I decided to share just for fun!

This was like written last year or something.

I should continue writing my diary this year!

My heart, for you, is tossed and turned.

Like a wave upon the stormy sea.

The wave will find its calming shore

as my heart comes home to rest with you.

Okay, fun's over!

I changed my blog cover, guys! LIKE FINALLY LOR

ohya, something randomly extra to add:

I actually love all my blog post titles.

I personally feel it is kinda creative.

Though it may not always have a link to my blog post at any way at all.

My cover has me & my 2 closest friends.

Lots of love love love from me <3

Kiss me.

syrupy camel dreams

2012-01-29T17:19:00.002+08:00

I hope you find yourself again.

Dinner at Strictly Pancakeszxc with Brice!

Garlic Buttered Prawns.

So good okay <3

The Bandit Thief of something.

@YioChuKangChapel

My first attending a wedding and it's someone I don't know!

Our outfits like match ah.

From here down are some of my kcpian friends.

SO, this is one of those times where I'm just gonna be random.

Totally, guys.
I cry when I read about it in the news.
I cry even harder when I watch it on videos.
Stop animal abuse.

For all the people who think they're fat when they're skinny
and all the people who think they're not beautiful because of their weight.

hahaha, all android users, aye? Aye.
*raises hand*

So, these past few days were pretty good to me (:
more pictures:

Some people just try to look fierce.

fail la fail la.

So today I read something. Touched? Yes, I suppose so.

I wanna tell someone that he'll get over it because we all do, eventually.

These feelings last forever unless you pick yourself up.

& I hope you can find yourself again.

So now a song before I go and study my bum off?

& no, there's no hidden messages in this song.

stay calm and rock on

2012-01-18T15:57:00.002+08:00

not much of a fish eye effect huh :/

I blog when I'm sleepy, just trying to stay awake and making sure my body clock don't get screwed. Again.

School so boring. *act cute girl mode ON* BORED DIE ME lehhhh.
I'm sorry, I just like mocking this phrase.

Allow me to treat my blog as tumblr:

I remember telling a friend that I loved letters. Even if it's on a foolscap paper.
I love letters. They're the best gift to me. & I know some of you agree with me too!

COOL RIGHT

Oh my, you fluffy little thang.

I'd be pissed too.

I just had to post this.

Talk about awkwardness, huh?
I started the "problem" but you ended it.
I guess we were in it together, yes?
We make too fast a decision and end up hurting others or yourself.
Only to realise in time that it was just too wrong.
But I hope you'll a little more everyday.

Now, before I end my blogpost, a photo for all your sad faces (:
(been seeing too many tweets about sadness ):)

Oh, doesn't this remind you of an innocent you?
Like when you were little and all you had to do was cry and you get what you want.
Or when the hardest decision was choosing what colour crayon you want.( << copied from tumblr)
And all you do was play with your toys and eat and sleep.
You don't even have to go to the bathroom! If only adult diapers was normal for any ages and health. And our dreams were to be Batman's psychic or Winx Club and we don't get judged. Well, till now it's still the same but if you tell people that's what you wanna be you'll just be listed as someone childish or unrealistic.

HA, nuff' said about my random rant that may/may not make sense.

A song before I stop?

This song has no particular meaning or hidden meaning.

tickle me funneh

cheers to the teenage years

2012-01-16T15:55:00.001+08:00

deafened by the silence,

blinded by the tears.

and you kinda see a heart shape (:

love this!

if i were an "act cute" girl, i'd totally say "WAH CUTE DIE ME"

now, a song.

posting random pictures and song because I'm bored.

I think you misunderstood me again and again.

crystal blur

2012-01-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

JANNAH CHATTING WITH HER BOYFRIEND ON THE PHONE

THEREFORE I WEBCAM FOR ZE FUN OF IT meow

I visited her family's catering thingy and the first thing one of them said was..

"TWINS TWINS TWINS"

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL k.

So, do we look a like!?

the video is so fucking funny. especially the ending.

I never get tired of this!! I watched it with joycee qi so many times and we still laugh like fucking crazy. LOVE THE BOY

so, jannah is staying over my place tonight since she's working tmr which is very near my house area. woooooooooooooo

chikka wao wah

quick decisions and late realisations

2012-01-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

smoooooooooooooooch

hello lively princesses.

excuse me but, i'm not even gonna think twice with whatever im about to type.

heavy eyes and a swollen right eye, oh my oh my.

tired but i don't wanna sleep just yet

blogging just so i can waste time. (chasing cars song playing in my head)

friday the 13th - officially yesterday - was.. ):

some bitch accidentally hit my face with her strap thingy in a ninja swinging style

and because she apologised profusely i didn't get my panda to sit on her.

and then the train was like super crowded.

I WAS FORCED TO MOLEST A GUY yes, forced!

i mean i wouldn't mind if the guy looked like moose from stepup3 or

some other really cute geeky looking boy BUT NO.

aunties look somewhat frail but actually they super strong and duper kiasu.

strength from being kiasu (Y)

we were all like sardines packed in a can.

oh and not to mention i went out without my wallet?!!

fyi; i don't keep my ez-link in my wallet.

go out without wallet ): was super pissed at myself for that.

so, shisha for ahhmadwildan very belated birthday!

had pretty good murtabaks at zamzam which i like to call bambam.

bloody bad facilities but pretty good food. nothing can be perfect, oh well

retard 1

retard 2

retard 3

retard 4

because he looks goofy

because it's the year of the dragon

because he's ahmad

my essential

birthday

boy

shisha at gulf beach.

i'm stuck. i don't know what to do.

harry new years

2012-01-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEARS, YAW.

Chose this picture because of the fireworks background.

And we all look somewhat decent. Hahaha.

A post to just wish everyone a good year.

& hopefully CNY get more $ than the previous one!

I like this picture. & I always give this type of retarded look for the camera.

This is Jannah, my girlfriend yaw. <3 <3 <3

top of the world

2011-12-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas, everyone!

I had a good X'mas. How was yours?!

below are just very very few pictures I took on xmas eve.

A dinner at my place and Jannah was invited (:

I just thought this was cute.

My mom had a little theme and she bought masks and goofy glasses.

I only posted it up on Twitter for mine which I only took 2 :/

PIZZA CONE DAMN JIZZ

What the. I just realised I didn't snap a picture of the turkey or any other delicacies placed on the table!! WHAT THE. wasted shiatz. Or the presents -.-

talking bout pressies, i damn happy CAN

Make Up Store make-up set (:

With a very pretty box too.

Jannah was given one too!! Unexpectedly my mom got her a perfume set!

Cool shit or cool shit!

now pix for Christmas today!

Italian restaurant we ate at!

Appetizers!

(rare) CHEESE and asparagus (:

Salad and pig trottle!

Good shit.

Some really good cheese and chip!

fuckingforgotwhatthingythisis.

Some pasta with braised squid. thumbs up!

Ravioli!

Pasta with black truffles and smth liver.

Brother says it's effing good.

Squid Ink with sea urchins, crabs and jalapeños!!! cold dish. okok only.

Ox meat something something, not bad.

my brother's girlfriend.

and the egg's runny. success!

raviolis (fyi) inside there's cheese and egg yolk.

super jizz (Y)(Y) Jakarta has nicer ones though.

Now the mains!

MY BROTHER'S RABBIT.

ITS NICE LEH, tougher than chicken.

Nice! $65.

Mine: Quail.

Because quails are small, they're stuffed with veges and bits of meat.

Duck!

Lambbbb

DOESN'T LOOK APPETIZING I KNOW

Some fish. the waitress helped my mom prepare the fish with the squeezing of lemon and all so it looks v v v messy

duhhhhhfug. i look like im closing my eyes.

AHHHH GOOD CHRISTMAS <3 <3 <3
I HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT CHRISTMAS AND AN AMAZING NEW YEAR <3

stale cigarettes and cheap liquor

2011-12-15T13:12:00.001+08:00

I tried to fly but you were th anchor.
You weighed me down and my wings were broken.
I wanted to be free from th people, the world and life and everything.
But you insist you keep me down, oblivious to my needs and screams.
Either I die first, never once free or you have to realise the crying in me.

this was an entry from one of my diaries.
came across it today and thought this was sort of, kind of, maybe a little appropriate for everything that happened.

and this picture is from some random place in the world wide web

masked man

2011-12-12T02:42:00.001+08:00

"Happiness is within. It has nothing to do with how much applause you get or how many people praise you. Happiness comes when you believe that you have done something truly meaningful." - martin yan

Sunday outing with part of my family (:

Slacks and sneakers + town.

Main thingy: the way pearl takes a picture of my parents.

I think this is cute.

My brothers above and below

Japanese dinner at Akashi @ Paragon.

My brother ordered foie gras (sp?)

He said it's the best thing he tasted in his life.

After dinner he said he still can't forger th taste.

It's $20. Pricey, yes?

that white blob of cuteness looks like those rice buns you see in anime.

well, you don't see it here la. bad angle.

This was my meal. Super good!! I forgot what this is called already.

They gave little rice but alot of beef. And the half cooked egg in th middle was what made it all so good tgt. Price was reasonable and good!

the fried salmon was pretty badly done. so dry.

Okay, out of topic. Why is Singapore getting more difficult?

I heard that if you call for a cab, starting price from $2.50 to $8

which is a 220% increase!!!

what theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

this is the edible gingerbread 'house'

and my sis and i ate bits of the house.

HEHEHEHE i was afraid the cashier next to us would say something

and of course it was STALE

My parents, sister & i ended up waiting for cab whole night.

Comfort was fucking up and there were too many families waiting for cabs.

So, we ended up at Mandarin Hotel having supper not long after our dinner.

(Perhaps this is my talent to eat and eat and eat and not puke yet.)

@ Chatterbox. Apparently expats like to stay in that hotel because of this restaurant's

famous Singaporean dish. THE chicken rice *dramatic song plays*

It costs $27 for just that dish okay!

The rice was a big disappointment, no fragrance one!!

But at least it wasn't oily. It's not worth th cost though.

Perhaps it was just that night their chicken rice fucked up.

Thank you for reading my Sunday boredom post inspired by insomnia.

Smack me with some sleeping pills, someone.. anyone.

stolen sanity

2011-12-10T00:57:00.001+08:00

First thing first, Happy belated birthday Jillian (:
Went to vivo @ night to chip in for th stuff and pass a card.
Didn't even meet th birthday girl! Had to rush back.

I can't get these lines out of my head....
"And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away"

Jarst fer farn!
Ask me something in formspring!
You can type in your question in th box somewhere...
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< there.

AND DO YOU ALL KNOW ABOUT TH ABERCROMBIE & FITCH HAWTTTT GUYS STANDING SOMEWHERE AT ORCHARD ROAD?
Wearing only wine red track pants. They were handpicked from Japan, USA and Italy.
& of course the best thing about it is that they're TOPLESS and absolutely HANDSOME.
*OH,FAINTSZXC*
rock-hard abs and solid chests.
THEY WILL BE OUT THERE EVERY SINGLE FREAKING DAY UNTIL 15 DECEMBER FROM 1-7PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO GREET CUSTOMERS.
YOU CAN TOUCH THEM WHEN YOU TAKE A PICTURE WITH THEM.

oh gawd, i sound like some kind of perv.
you can't blame me. when i saw th news about it on channel news asia i swear
i had some kind of adrenaline rush! ubersuperduper !@#%^&*()(*%$#@

OH MY LORDDDDDDDDDDDDD
k, bye!

Hopefully a happy December

2011-12-02T01:28:00.001+08:00

Last post: 21 march 2011
Decided to use a defibrillator on my blog.
I still haven't changed th blogskin yet and it's driving me nuts.
Anyway,

This week so far;

went to MBS to chill since karthik and dan had some appointment around there.

Our chopped and beaten ice cream (: I loved th forest berries flavour and cookie dough.

And watched a pretty lame water/lights show at th open area there.

& as you can see from my pictures, I'm an amateur in photography.

I thought th jiggly lights were kinda cool :B

Okay, time for th random pictures taken that day.

I didn't know I was gonna be too casual for this day.

Oh, why do I have such chubbiness ):

It's like re-enactment of th day they first went out tgt.

Their piggyback around MBS, their cold rock ice creams and th water/light show.

I just realised, eh.

OKAY, FOR THIS DAY, WE BROUGHT TH KIDS OUT TO PLAY (:

I like kids. I just don't know how to react & all when I'm with them.

& I was a little nervous as to how they'd see me.

And since I'm not sure how to spell their name, I'll pimp it out a little.

Left; Rii0 & Right; Faraezszxc

(You just have to smile when you see this :D)

Pardon thy naked and non-photogenic face.

THESE KIDZ MAKE ME FEEL SO OLD. When I'm just 17......

They made us play and play and they've got too much energy to waste.

Now I know how my parents felt when I was like 5.

But they, no doubt are a bundle of joy *sweetest smile*

Okay, boring post for now. Meow.

Should I get gifts or cards (or both) for my lovable friends? :/

cat got my tongue

2011-03-21T20:45:00.000+08:00

in between th lines are unspoken words. i just never had th courage to voice it out.

I was abducted by alienx

2011-01-27T12:23:00.002+08:00

This was.. 3 days ago? First time buying P.osh brownies (:
It looks better than it tastes...
Disappointment much.

-
There's a difference between opinions and facts.
What you're always vomiting out are opinions.
What your brain doesn't understand are facts.

Simple.

boredom

2011-01-06T12:43:00.001+08:00

Currently in Chinese class, blogging! nothing to do since everyone is doing their work! Ending school in about an hour's time! but its about to rain too. Damn it~~~

Tomorrow is th day bra's back! gonna fetch him from his school. So far..

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boredom

2011-01-06T12:42:00.001+08:00

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I like our friendsheep like this (:

2011-01-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

I like how things are niaow!
& since things are now are pretty good, there'll probably be more expectations for something better.
And what does expectations bring? Disappointments.

I've like posted that in twitter, fb and bog :/ hahaha.

I would say, I didn't do my best in Sec 3. I have to buck up now.
I have to pass every single subject to go Sec 5 because I dropped Chinese.
Gonna get POA tuition. That's my weakest subject. I disike JaneCheng!
She called my parents today too, when they're like overseaz.
Mommy called me several times just a nag at me about being serious in studying.
I am serious! Just not in POA! And with her distractive fake smiles and posing as a "11-year-old",
Would YOU be able to concentrate?

Gawwdddd, ):

Up so high, looking down from th sky

2011-01-02T16:40:00.001+08:00

What goes up, must come down. Don't let me fall.

Besti3!

Joyc3!

Br@!

Some of th peeeks for NY.

"And th worst part is

before it gets any better,

we're headed for a cliff.

And in th free fall I will realize

I'm better off when I hit th bottom."

Everything is gonna be ok in th end. If it's not ok, it's not th end

2010-12-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

I like my denim jacket (L)

I've been getting quite a few denims already.

I love soft denim (Y) so comfyyyy.

When it rains, you don't see th sun, but it's always thr.

Hope we can be like that.

We don't aways see each other, but we will always be there for 1 another.

I made a little something something for my dearest (:

Matters of th heart

2010-12-21T14:12:00.000+08:00

Pride will always tell you it's impossible,
Experience will always tell you it's risky,
Reasons will always tell you it's pointless,
But your heart would always tell you to give it another try.

( Y )

2010-12-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

Finally, in Singapore, blogger no problem with me (Y)
I'm using my netbook now! Hehe, no more that dying laptop!

Thanks people! It's good to be back!
I felt very welcomed back with all your calls and messages,
via cyber and mobile! 谢谢你们！

poppy understands me th best.

2010-12-18T04:13:00.001+08:00

I couldn't sleep. Im not used to my bed anymore. My dog's fur was shaved and i thought she might be a little cold. I put over a blanket and she woke up. She started scratching and biting and i realised that she had rashes.

I neglected her for too long. And when she saw me come home she was th one and only who welcomed me back at home. She has been so loyal to me but im a fucking bad owner.

I started to sayang her and talk to her. Call me crazy if you want, you won't understand. I cried, and then poppy looked at me and she looked at me as if she understood. she licked away my tears and came nearer to me.

God, i love her so fucking much. I hate myself for treating her as invisible. How could i neglect her when she has been th one whom i know will always welcome me back home, who'll always be loyal to me and will forever be true to me until th end.

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2010-12-16T20:16:00.001+08:00

So what is it going to be? will you choose your ego over love? or vice versa.

I love blasting music into my ears, loud enough that i can't hear anything or anyone else. It somehow.. Lets me escape from reality? Im not sure what triggered me that now i feel so sad. I feel like going to someone's shoulder and cry. Im not sure why i feel like Im going to breakdown.
Im definitely happy on th outside. I should be happy on th inside too but why do i feel th opposite? tomorrow i am going to be back in Singapore. Meet all my friends that I've missed so much. Im excited but at th same time, Im just sad.
Its definitely not because i will miss this place.
I have only Friday night, Saturday and Sunday. And maybe you guys won't see my round face again. I hope that will not be th case..

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life has so many surprises in store for you

2010-12-16T17:48:00.001+08:00

I like to be alone in my room. Away from everyone and everything. Just a little quiet time for myself.

Its a cycle. That's how it always happens and that's what you'll feel when you're falling in love. It doesn't have to someone whom people expected to be. Everyone will always surprise everyone else. That someone you can fall for could be anyone. Especially th most unexpected one.

Life is full of surprises, huh.
Im glad. Im pretty happy too.
So what's next?

Ha, most of you probably have no idea what th eff Im saying.

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happy pill

2010-12-16T03:48:00.001+08:00

You make me happy. You cheer me up.
Thanks so much.

Good thing you're outta th way.

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Remember how you ALWAYS made me smile? (:

2010-12-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

When you forget me
When you don’t remember my name
Not even a memory
Somewhere in the back of your brain
I won’t be offended
‘Cause I always knew that the day
Would come when I’m not enough to make you stay
You tell me it’s not possible, no way that we could break
But nothing is illogical, believe me

Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out, burn like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful, yeah

The world is turning
And time keeps on lingering on
The sun will be burning
Eventually you will be gone

I’ll always love you
Oh, believe it or not
Baby, that’s not enough to
Not enough to stop these…

Falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out, burn like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful, yeah

When it’s all said and done
I’ll be just a speck in the galaxy
Floating far far away by gravity
You tell me it’s not possible
No way that we could break

Like falling stars
Like crashing cars
Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out just like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful
You are so beautiful, yeah

I loved you too.

I was being random! (: While I was waiting to go out.

I finally have contacts!! They only had a few colours.

Like really a few only. ):

I decided my plans when I am finally back in Singapore.

Hopefully, nothing will pull me back.

Hopefully, it's gonna be th high point of my life.

A breakthrough! :D

Yes, maybe you can say I TORK CORK! But just wait and see..

You'll be able to tell th difference by taking a look at my SMILE!

and SUCCESS (;

Yayayaya, think I only saysay and won't do uh.

Seriously, you'll see a change in me.

Things are different now. I will adapt to th change. I will change.

Wanna know change to what? (: Observe me, Stalk me, Watch me.

I will show you.

What does your heart say?

2010-12-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

If you're in love with 2 people, choose th second person because if you really loved th first person, thr wouldn't be a second option.

Why didn't I realised this th first time?

Thr are some thinigs we only realise it a little too late.

Stop throwing in too much sugar

2010-12-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

Wait wait wait for this Sunday! (:

Gonna make new specz tonight. I have to start wearing them ):
Eyesight's getting pretty bad already.
Shall consider having contacts too..

Sarrkkss that my eyesight getting pretty bad aready D: !

No second thoughts

2010-12-10T01:28:00.000+08:00

You really want me to study here huh.

School here has only education up to Sec 2. Unless I take up homeschooling

I'm supposed to study Sec 4.

You even suggested to me to lie about my age and just study here.

I really love th kidz here.

I'm missing them now. Hahaha.

White and Black

2010-12-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

it's amazing how much difference you see when you meet different races.

they're so interesting.

Start hearing me out

2010-12-09T14:29:00.000+08:00

Is "IMPRISONING" me here supposed to help me with anything?!
You make me stay here because you wanna spend time with me.
Fine, I understand that. But are you spending time with me by
letting me stay at home, staring at th TV and lappy screen & doing abso-fucking-lutely NOTHING?
I AM WASTING MY FUCKING TIME AND HOLIDAY HERE.
STUCK HERE IN ANOTHER FUCKING COUNTRY.

You said you'd support me in what I wanna do, I told you already and you suggested for me to go hairdressing. Wtf?! I want to further study Science, I wanna learn Psychology.
Is that wrong? I know you look down on me but you won't admit it.
You don't think I can study or learn but do you really have to suggest me shit jobs?
You rather me be a waitress for my whole life when I aspire to be a counsellor or whatever?
When I say something you always have a comment to shoot me.
That's why I always give you blah replies/answers when you talk to me.

Fuck man, I can't talk to you. I'm not as good, as SMART or HARDWORKING
as my other 4 brothers. Or as close to you as my sister.
But I am still your child, and all I need is YOU TO FUCKING UNDERSTAND ME.
I tried understanding you, that's why I never retaliated in any way.
But you are really getting on my nerves.

Stop with your secret plans! I don't want to be taken away to other countries anymore.
I don't fucking care! What makes me so pissed is that you aren't doing what you say you would do.
Everything you say is just bullshit. Pure bullshit.

I just need to fucking vent my anger.

Can't I make th decision instead?

2010-12-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

Mom asked if I'mma stay in Balikpapan for good.
Of course, I said no.

Mom wants to bring me to HK and then back to Balikpapan.
Mom wants me to study here.
Mom isn't convinced that I will do better in Singapore.
She thinks I will be influenced by friends again.
Down here th education system sucks.
There's no high school. I have to be home schooled with Evan.
Well, thr is one. AIS but I heard it sucks and it's small.
This is an american system, whereby you self-study at home and have lesson through th computer.
And when thr's exam you take it in some weirdo place.

Mom wants me to study here. She don't want me back in Singapore.

Sigh. I will be diagnosed with depression due to loneliness.
When I can finally be back in Singapore I really must cherish th time spent with my lovelies.
In case, I really have to stay here for good.

What th eff

Only you. Cause you deserved it.

2010-12-08T16:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's nice living here.

But I am just soooo not used to it.

Lies, lies, lies.

Disappointments and more disappointments.

Why do I expect something from you when you have nothing to give.

Because now, everything is different.

So, I should change too.

I will pretend I don't know you.

Eventually, when it's long enough,

I will forget you & th history we've ever had.

I'mma start something else new.

& this time, I'll be happier.

When I'm back, I shall tell no soul.

Only th ones who really missed and cared for me, all these while.

who first?

2010-12-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

all im thinking is, what am i supposed to do now?
why do i hang onto things that are not worth it and has never been worth it.
and fuck it that sometimes i get emotional over that.

just a few more days.
who do i go see first when im back?

im am so looking forward to see owen, evan, isabelle!

Pet shopping!

2010-12-07T20:16:00.000+08:00

Mirror, mirror on th wall who's th biggest fool of all? Must be th girl who can't stop crying or maybe it's th girl who kept trying.

Pictures for my trip to th pet shop!
Couldn't get th pictures of effing cute hammies crowding around th wheel.
And th bunnies hopping around everywhereeee!

Camouflaging with th branch!

Look at th 2-tone colour.

Okay, this lizard's lunch is th dead baby hamster/rat/mouse.

Well, just a baby rodent.

Concentrate on th chow-chow puppy!!

Fat boy cuteness!!

My mom was considering this pup and th grey persian kitty :/

dint get either one though!!!

Last but not least ; Chihuaua(sp?)!

Still a little puppy. I don't know why it's always shaking.

Th eyes are like damn big and like a little cocked eye.

hahaha. cute!

kkkkk, bbbbb!

Random strikes

2010-12-07T00:38:00.002+08:00

It's like I am cursed with my eyebags.

sighhhhhhh!!

Ha, I tried out wearing a beanie or whatever that is.

Okay, we checked into a cool hotel which is th first hotel ever built in Surabaya.

So it's like really old. Th bathroom is gorgeous.

Th pictures cannot fully show you th awesome beauty of it la.

Must see in real life, th feel is just nice. I dont know why.

hahaha, bathtub's shower head is like a telephone which is extra cool.

I love th shower head in th shower room.

Wonder why thr's a door to everything inside th bathroom.

I have a thing for hotel bathrooms, alright. hahahaha.

Wonder how Heaven looks like..

Issit fluffy like those clouds here?

I really like sitting by th window in planes..

hmmmmmmmmm,

and now big bobble-heads thingies!

I was in a mall full of shops that were just.. Awesome.

Ha, I wish I could go frenzy mode or something and have unlimited cash

and just buy everything.

But I didn't and only gotten things that my mom wants me to get

cause she thinks it looks good on me and things that I think I will use for a long time.

While my 4 year old little devilish sister was spending money like it's

really unlimited. Her special weapon? Crying.

Works like a damn charm, man.

Today's shopping was bad. Lazy to elaborate.

My shoulder's aching, internet is pissing me off and I shall just end it here!

Good bye (:

Who's gonna camp at th airport for me?

HA.

Deceived and Betrayed

2010-12-06T09:42:00.000+08:00

Innocent faces, evil minds.
They are everywhere and everyone.

Who to believe?

Morning bluez

2010-12-06T09:29:00.000+08:00

Sigh! Woke up so early in th morning for what ):
Only to eat breakfast then go back th room.
After my sister goes swimming can go shopping already.
Hope can do a good shopping today! (:

Had a bad sleep last night, my gosh...
My dad snoresssssszxc.

I think I was woken up at like 6/7 ??

Just a thought..

2010-12-04T22:55:00.000+08:00

Everyone wish to rewind to a certain time in their lives to correct a mistake they've regretted.
Th suckiest part is that it's always th case that we can't do anything about it to correct it.
Other than regretting, we've always wanted to take away certain memories that drives you crazy.
But somehow in some way you just get reminded of it and you could never take your mnd off it.
I hate all th lies and backstabbing everyone seems to be doing.
Humans can be sweet and kind but also cunning and sly.
Even th person whom you trust most will betray you in th end.
Yes, maybe that secret you've shared with others was not a big deal but th trust broken is.
Main reason why you're hurt. Because it's so disappointing.
But well, it's normal right? But th thing is that it was just unexpected.

Well, you just surprised me big time.

One more thing ; send th fucking correct signals you fucking morons.
You only give confusion.

Life is too short to be unhappy

2010-12-04T16:19:00.000+08:00

Ivan and Josef went back to Singapore today!

Leaving me behind. So lonely.

Leaving for Surabaya tomorrow &

I'm still considering whether to go HK or not.

It's winter thr now!!

And when I go back to Singapore.. Maybe a Malaysia trip!! :D

Life's too short to be unhappy.

Better start smiling and living it.

I shall try to enjoy and make a bond with my parents.

I am happyhappyhappy!!

Sadcase, when th 2 guys go back SG, I went shopping

and they sold stuff that they definitely would consider buying.

Especially when I visited th Simpsons/Spongebob shop!

I got myself a Bart shirt and Homer bag (:

hehehehe.

byebyebyebye!

Make up my mind ..

2010-11-23T16:59:00.000+08:00

Every single day here.. Somehow I've been given reasons to stay here longer.
But thr are reasons to go back too.
Everything is so stressful. I don't handle stress very well.

I've read that little black book. It's sweet in your lame way.
Thanks anyways. But you'll forget me soon enough. In fact, you forgot me really fast.

Actually, I'm pretty much confused whether or not I should stay or not.
Life here with angmo pastor's sons and daughters?
Or back in Singapore called Home.

Make new home or go back old one...

I don't know.

Loner! ):

2010-11-20T13:26:00.000+08:00

Hihihihi!
I'm trying to convince my parents, hope it works! (:

I miss everyone ): sigh.

All over again

2010-11-13T06:42:00.000+08:00

Probably, not alot of people realise that I'm single again.
Ha, isn't this better? (: But thing is, I don't know what to do first.

It's like you've always somehow put him first and what you do, always included him.
And now thr's no him. So what do you do first?

Don't do things for th wrong reasons even though you had th good intention in mind.
It WILL end up all wrong. Who loses out first? Yourself.
I thought that it wouldn't happen to me again. But turns out, it did.
2nd time out of th 2 times, I'm th one who loses out first.
Maybe it's karma for somehting I did wrong. I don't know.

Kiss Goodbye? This song for me?
It's not a nice song at all. Why for me. Listening to th lyrics of th song,
relating it to myself, I see how much you didn't even wanted th relationship.

Sigh.

Tick-tock. Time's running out

2010-11-07T02:05:00.000+08:00

He he he, we quit our job and went to Punggol Marina for a K-Drinking session.

Time's running out. I haven't made any proper plannings.

I'm still blur ); I started too late.

I need to work and earn more money.

Makes things so much easier.

I wish I wish I wish I'm rich.

Everything makes sense now

2010-10-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

Your previous tweets makes sense now.
Thanks bastard. Thanks to everyone.
Especially to myself.

My life rocks. Yay.

When I was primary four , I shouldn't have taken that pathetic blunt thing.
I should've just taken th biggest, th sharpest.

Th younger you're, th more guts you have to try new things.
Ha. If I could rewind, I'd rewind 8 years ago.
& I'll fucking make sure that I acheive what I wanted to that time!

I don't fucking care what happiness I have gotten during this short 16 years of my life! I just want to die.
I have no one I'm comfortable with to talk to at home. I have no one to trust outside.

F m l , That's all I can say.
Goodbye,

Pride

2010-10-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

Long time no post !

I would have to say that I am proud of myself.
It's th first time almost passing my Maths. I was so so close.
Just a few pathetic marks, that's all. But I'm still satisfied.
English, I'm glad I'm one of th tops ^^ He he !
Science, A1, I worked extra hard for it. So fuck yeah, I am fucking happy about it.

Th feeling of achieving something that you've worked hard for.. That feeling is awesome.

Anyways, random pictures. (:

These are some of th pictures taken at Marina Barrage/picnic. Haha.

Feat. Ivan, Weikian and Josef!

Ciaoszx. (:

Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world

Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love

Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world…
Like I’m the only one that’s in command
Cuz I’m the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Want you to make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world
Like I’m the only one that you’ll ever love
Like I’m the only one who knows your heart
Only one..

Knocked out

2010-09-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

What am I supposed to do? Follow your heart or follow your head?
Go with what you love or what you think is better for yourself.
It's a hard decision actually.

//

I don't know what th fuck I want for myself.
I screwed this part of my life up.
Don't know what to do...

Oh and anyway.. What if I fail again? ):
Why am I always so lazy..

I've gotta be a good sister. I've gotta make a good example.

No matter how much I dislike this little girl,

deep inside myself - I kinda adore her.

I'm stuck in this situation.

I want to follow my heart but I know I shouldn't.

I don't wanna regret again.

I don't love you.?

I'm still in love with th person you were before.

Not who you were when I last known you.

!@#$%^&*()_!!!!!!

fmlfmlfmlfmlfml, how?

2010-09-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

School!!

I am not prepared for th examinations at all.

I am lazy and unmotivated.

I have no discipline.

I'm worried.

f m l .

Today was disappointing because thr was no handball.

I came to school especially for handball.

But I played badmintan and I realised that I'm not bad in it.

HAHA (:

I get pissed. But I just try brush it off my shoulder.

FML

2010-09-22T19:24:00.002+08:00

I'll be back with pictures! Wait upppp!(;

FML! It's a secret why.

Wink*

2010-09-19T16:52:00.000+08:00

Being single is not so bad. Just cause you moved on so quick, doesn't mean I'm in a rush to meet someone.
I'm gonna be patient & wait on someone who deserves all my attention and affection.
I'm gonna be really picky, I'm gonna make sure that our seperation was supposed to happen,
that our ending was a new beginning for me.

Just a random post/
Anyway,

Drinking and karaoke session @ Punggol Marina last night.
Celebrated Dennis' birthday! Happy birthday in advance !

SNJ!

2010-09-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

Skipped school today. I was super tired.. I studied these few days.
I hope I can maintain!!! (:
It's not those few mins study, few hours break okay!
I studied for a few hours, AT LEAST 2 hours then break all th way (:
hehehehehehe. I am still getting pretty lazy anyway. I still need more motivation.

Where are you? I miss you.

This is Jannah! She's th girl version Bestie (:

Out soon, okaie?

where's my geekyfunnycute guy? ):

random

2010-09-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's school, Trudy, please sleep now.

Every post must have a picture.

So it's not so plain!

I really really need to make myself sleep no matter what.

Goodbye, Goodnight.

motivate me .

2010-09-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

I need motivation! ):
How to study without motivation?

Who or what will be my motivation?

byebyebyebye.

This is especially for my stalker. you damn efficient.
know everything i updated.
morning, afternoon, night, you know everything!
tsktsktsk! lol!

Heavy eyes..

2010-09-12T09:24:00.000+08:00

Good morning, sunshines! (:

It's 9.20am and I am still awake. I don't know whether I should sleep or not.
If I sleep now, tonight I won't be able to sleep. Then tomorrow die.
Schoooool ):

Currently uh, Denise is sleeping. Before she slept, she asked me to play a movie for her.
She watched awhile, reading my chat with Jialing then she fell asleep. Don't know play for what.
hahahahaha, (;

I am pretty tired, sigh. Sleep or don't sleep? ):

I don't know why's my picture tilted like this.

I can't tilt it back..

Ha, anyways, I think I shall sleep. I am very tired.

Seeyou , tonight !

Jiao Lan.

2010-09-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

I know you stalkers are waiting for my blog post. Hahahahahahaha.
When you're bored & you have poker cards, playing murderer is pretty fun (:
--

This is cute right? (:

But this is not as cute as my favourite Beagle.

This is me. ~~Cutest right?(;~~

Joking la.

I wanna go cycling, I wanna go cycling. I wanna go cycling.

I wanna go chalet too.

I want to extend holidays.

This is just a random post, waiting for Denise to wake up and get her ass out of my bed.

I didn't sleep enough, ): couldn't sleep back.

Wooo, finally she is up.

Bye(:

I just wanna include one last thing,

I fucking dislike people who, bo tai ji also want find tai ji.

Hah, if I could rewind back in time, I would very much like to slap his face!

Oh and one more thing.

I thought about it..

You don't have to officially stead with th guy to mean that you stole him from someone.

Even though you guys didn't stead or even act like a couple,

that doesn't mean you didn't steal from th person.

Maybe you lured him over.

I wouldn't know, would I? Haha.

"Mommy taught me that I should give my old toys to th less fortunate."

What a bitch , you're.

If you think it's you, you're probably guilty.

Well, that's all over isn't it !(:

Goodbye,

So long,

Farewell,

Byebye,

Zaijian,

It's 4.41am and I'm thinking of you.

2010-09-07T04:41:00.000+08:00

These are taken from Tanjong Rhu.

Hi, I am really a unhealthy. I just ate durian mooncake.

I just ate 3 types of junk food.

a few of each kind (:

........................

Lemme blog about what I wish I could have....

That kind of special someone! (:

I want to have someone by my side who takes initiative,

isn't shy about showing what he feels and thinks.

Who loves to laugh!

Whom I can be comfortable with when I'm having a badhairday.

Or when I snored that day, during my sleep.

Or when I show my most funniest, unglam face to him.

& he won't mind me stuffing my face with foodfoodfood.

If I gained too much weight, he'd still love me.

Calls his girl beautiful instead of hot.

With or without make-up on.

Even if she was wearing her pyjamas!

That would be a nice guy (:

And to top it off, a combo of a geeky/funny/cute.

Maybe plus, a kind guy.

Who loves animals just like me.

Who will give change to those ppl on th streetz.

& of course that he will love me dearly and be faithful.

But you know what I think?

Th hardest to keep in a guy is th last 2 points.

To love me dearly and to be faithful.

It's one of th easiest to find but hardest to keep.

Simply because these things don't last.

It's either feelings faded or was never thr or affairs.

Shame on these people who're players or cheat on their partners.

Full of craps la you ppl!

You were supposed to stay but you left anyway.

2010-09-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

Don't say you'll stay but leave anyway.
In th first place, guys shouldn't say they just wanna make friends but in th end..
After everything, they became strangers because "no love means no friendship".
You guys are full of bullshit.

--

Going out with Denise's family for dinner later.

I'm supposed to leave house long time ago

but here I am, blogging for my stalkers(: haha!

Talked about you, missed you alot.alot.alot.

To see how much you loved me, touched me.

I could still remember th scene..

From th surroundings to th tone of your voice and especially what you said and did.

It was unforgettable.

Too bad things turned out this way.

I loved you.

Hope you will remember me because I know I won't forget you.

Okay, B?(:

People, you won't be able to guess who. ha.

XXL

2010-09-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

Wednesday;

FEP & Cine with 3 three Bananas!

Denise, Adelaide & Jialing.

Step up 3 was awesome (:

ohoh, & tmr I'm getting my MGL skirt and sleeveless basic top!

But it's 2pm, so early.

bb!

Aloha!

2010-08-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

Get out as soon as you can. You fell too deep.

Happy teacher's day. Woo.

I just took my midnight shower. & to tell you a secret..

I get a little scared when I take a shower in th midnight.

My mind goes wild and I start to get really supersticious and

imagine what might happen. HAHA.

Some people are like that right (:

hehe.

After school, Denise and I were watching gore movies in my housey.

It's entertaining watching people suffer and die in a slow and painful death.

Blood bursting/oozing out and safety pins in eyeballszx!!

I sound sadistic? A little bit. That's th purpose :D

Th thrill's th most entertaining part.

If I wake up early enough and I get bored-stiff, I shall go for a short run.

After my run, mug on my maths homework.

After that, out 'till next dawn.

Ciao~

Faked a smile.

2010-08-28T11:51:00.000+08:00

That's Candypoo. (:

He asked me to upload it, so I did.

Where shall I go today? :O

Does friendships have to be based on love and not mutual feelings?

2010-08-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

I am at Denise's house now. Waiting for her to bathhhhhe.

Then shall have dinner and then study and maybe go outttt! (;

Tummy is complaining a little alr..

Some people changes for th better & some for th worst.

Hope you like what's going on for you now then (:

I liked maths class today! Loads of laughters.

It only can happen when Mdm Kaur's in a jollygoodmood.

Thank God on friday she was fucking happy (:

Praised me alot too! HAHA.

Mdm Cheng, as usual, very ya-ya. And indirectly suan th failures in POA.

Fuckyou v v v v much~

I have wasted enough time already, bye! (:

You're my kind of Perfect.

2010-08-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

No one deserves perfect because no one is perfect.
--

Fuck yeah man, I love PE! <33

//

Where did it go? ):

Geekyfunnycute

2010-08-18T21:12:00.001+08:00

You're giving me mix signals and I can't read you.
Give me a sign?
--

I've gotta keep in my mind;

"Study study study. No more regrets."

I'm smart but lazy.

All I want is fun.

I gotta give myself a break from all these fun and work hard.

I'm lacking behind.

I know I can study, I know I have alot of potential

it's just that I'm too lazy.

I need motivation.

Maybe some support from you. (;

I'll just be wasting my life if I continue like this.

I get all these feelings again..

Th feeling of falling in love!

Butterflys fluttering in your tummy,

Admiring how sweet he looks when he smiles,

etcetcetc.

Th excitement is great.

Th feeling of being with you is greater.

Let's meet up one more time.

Goodnight, world.

I hope it'll be a good morning tomorrow.

To me, you're like this geeky funny cute kinda guy.

I like that.

Sweet talkers are EVERYWHERE

2010-08-15T19:12:00.000+08:00

That's th problem when you have a crush on your good friend.
It won't be th same anymore when a so called third person comes up.
You're one of my best guyfriends. Don't do this k.
I can sense, I can feel th difference. I probably know how it feels uh.
I need you in my life as my good friend who has got my back,
don't leave like this .

That's what you're making me feel. This is just what I would like to say to you.

Just gonna stand thr and watch me burn?

2010-08-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

Just for random's sake.

Keep this blog a little alive with a few photos.

Gone through so much tgt.

What's forever?

I love th way you lie.

If I had u, that would be th only thing that I ever need.

2010-08-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

I realised something!
I made th same wish on my birthday, on 11:11 and upon a star.
What's meant to be , will be. It just wasn't our fate.
-

Wow, Friday th 13th & 7th month. Double trouble huh.
I would love to go exploring today. But due to some kinda camera thing, dunno whether still wanna go.
:/

Today I had chemistry & POA common test.
Chem , i hope I'll pass! (: I think I did pretty well on it.
POA, SLEEP. fail!

I have wasted enough time, goodbye world.

Sigh, you aren't mine to keep ):

Hartbraik

2010-08-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

i miss you ..

My blog's dying.
--

Today's maths common test. Im still up awake.
I shall force myself to sleep. Shut off everything from my mind.
Not think of anything already.

Goodnight, world.

You're like th saddest love song.

Forever yours.

2010-08-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

Thought you were fine, in th end saw your true colours.
Protected and treated you right and found out it wasn't worth it.

ohhhhhfxck!t.

_____________________________________________________

What th fuck, my sister just gave her first kiss at th age of 4.
She has a boyfriend called Adrian.
Rahbak.

Watch me as I fall,

2010-08-04T10:40:00.000+08:00

"If I had you, that'll be th only thing I ever need."

Sometimes, friends is better than lovers, can't deny right?
From friends to lovers to strangers, it's a mean cycle.
Not all old relationships become friendships again.
Better friends than lovers .

--

"When I think of you, I don't feel so alone."

Wednesday today, skipped school because of my horrible terrible irritating coughs!
Tomorrow I'm back in school and thr's PE! (: me like, me like!
Can't wait for this weekend (: Parents are off to Hongkong and I will have freedom!
My brother is getting married and didn't tell me ): Not close with him anyway.

I can't wait to step back into th school again.
I miss school and I have no idea why.
(:

So long, suckers! Bye!

"Always remember me. I loved you."

With you here, it's so hard to breathe...

2010-08-03T15:52:00.000+08:00

Things for me has really turned out more eventful and fun but I've to concentrate more on work!
Now, I'm suffering with my coughs. Doctor say it has something to do with infection ):
Getting better (Y) .

Shall chiong all th way! (;
I have 2 days MC but if tmr I'm better already, I'm going to school.
(:

ai ai!(:

Some people may seem innocent and good to you but don't underestimate them.

Wooooo

2010-07-31T03:52:00.001+08:00

hi. we're chilling in my crib! (:

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Life is better with you ard (L)

2010-07-23T01:36:00.000+08:00

Th biggest mistakes are th ones whr it's th hardest to learn from.

That's why we always fall in love with th wrong people though it felt right.

(: I'm happy now.

And no, it's not a lie. I'm still partially correct.

fyi to all your curious minds.

2010-07-16T23:03:00.001+08:00

me talking to you today was not because i was trying to make things better and hope that we'll stay tgt. but it was just for me to try understand what's happening and why. because i deserve to know, right?

i already know that there's no hope. i have already done trying and wasn't expecting
anything much.

this is just fyi.

gonna update private blog now.

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sianjipua

2010-07-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

Dear Huiqin, see? I updated.(;

I updated my private blog too.
Pouring everything out in my private blog is not enough because I need someone to understand me.
That blog won't be able to do that.

lazy upload any piks here. everything in fb.

daddy smokes secretly. he hides it from mom.
thought christians arent supposed to smoke?!
ain't it a sin?!

whateva.

We're distant.

2010-07-14T21:32:00.000+08:00

Would you be able to do it so easily when there're people saying and asking th same things over and over again? Would you, when they're so close?

Posting pictures up. Someone asked me to update, since it's like.. Dead.
I feel fucking tired now. Kuai dian shui.

i hate school for 1 good reason and 1 stupid reason.

damn tired..

Emotionless.

2010-07-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

Gonna post in my private blog soon. :O

Sigh, another day of school tomorrow ):
sigh

chao chee

2010-07-04T20:07:00.001+08:00

i have been staring at my television for hours since th hour i woke up. i am dying of boredom. i wanna movie date. i want shopping. i can't spend my fucking so called off days like this. Sian ji pua.

i rot at home.

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Fuck th what what the Fuck

2010-07-03T16:00:00.001+08:00

culture night last night.
it was disappointing.
im not only talking about the performances though.

a few more days.. ..

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your pants is hot. always on fire.

2010-07-01T22:37:00.001+08:00

even other people could see what is happening. you wanna do it you do it so openly? i dunno..
see, what did i tell you before? sigh i don't want to be part of this anymore.
i would like to hear th truth first though.

next time don't say you will try if you won't at all.
its disappointing.

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First.

2010-06-30T20:36:00.001+08:00

Using my android for blogger for th first time!
pretty cool. hehe. awesome... !!!

what am i supposed to do.. ?..

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2010-06-27T17:49:00.000+08:00

Nobody really do what they say.

Whether it's your boyfriend, friends, family. No one really keeps their words.

So does this means no one can really be trusted?

Shut down or restart?

2010-06-24T18:07:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna check it out because I don't wanna go through th whole pissed off feeling again.

Ni zhen de hen LEI.

2010-06-23T05:18:00.000+08:00

It may have been a white lie. But aren't you sick of th lies?

Same old. Same old. Lei liao.

I can't help but say it all out. Well maybe not all.
--

Honestly, you ruined it. But to be fair, I can't say that.
Because there's someone who's your accomplise.
It take 2 hands to clap. AND! you backstabbed me and you backed out of your words.
YOU are th main cause. So, to be fair, I can technically say that you ruined everything.
So, fuck yourself.

& you know, i told other people that you could be trusted and you're someone nice. but hell no, man. HELL NO.
YOU ARE A FUCKING SLY FUCKED UP FUCKER.

But to be civilised, and fair. I shouldn't say all those vulgar and call u names.
But because I'm so pissed , i dont really much care.

You wait, you wait, I sue you!

2010-06-22T13:05:00.000+08:00

Walao, before I even started working. When I just wore my uniform, one lady came up to me complaining about th restaurant services. Public nuisance, i must say. Asking me for th manager.
When th manager came up, she was complaining and saying she'll sue him. Manager angry, shouted back.
He has those gaygay angry kind of attitude.

Anyway, I have some paiseh moments I would not like to share. Hehehehehe.

I guess today's an off day. (Y)

It's suspicious that you're so secretive. Actually, I know what th hell you're doing. Stop hiding away.

601th post.

2010-06-21T02:28:00.000+08:00

Working tomorrow , finally .

Dont you think th picture's pretty cute?

don't forget us; don't forget me.

Need you now

2010-06-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

Had pictures with th Universial Studio globe. But very lazy to send it to my lappy.
STALK ME @ Baits, very near Universal Studio.
Stalk me okay? I'd love to see any farmiliar faces. (:
Really.

Y'know I really wanted to let you see my p/blog but i'm not ready.

fuckers.

2010-06-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

fuck everything okay.
pizz me off like fuck man. every single thing.
can some people take up th initiative and help me out with th pathetic house chores? can my phone please uh please CHARGE PROPERLY INSTEAD OF DRAINING.

and can some people appreciate what i try to do for them?! i wait so long, in th end, all i get is attitude and kena left behind. fuck everyone. fuck everything. im so fucking tired of caring of all these.

fucking stress. FUCKING FUCKING STRESS.

even work! ccb, fuck kelly services too!
say you'll call and make th appointment then CALL.
SUPPOSED TO MEET TMR. THEN WHERE TH FUCKING HELL IS YOUR FUCKING CALL.

looks like im gonna mia from my handphone for quite awhile. because it has no battery. it pisses me off real badly. and especially th attitude of some others. i deserve some appreciation. not this shit.

i hate (you). especially (YOU).

7 minutes in Heaven

2010-06-16T03:46:00.000+08:00

Interview day (yesterday)

Got my hair pinned at th back. & worn nice nice ^^

I like dressing up. Haha.

Then I got my hair curled for a day because an angmo wanted to curl it,

so I let her do it since I've always wanted to see how it'd be like.

It didn't seemed very nice at first.

But it wasn't bad after awhile.

(Y) if only my hair becomes a little bit longer!

I always wanted you to hold my hand.

Now that you're holding hand again,

it feels like you're wearing oven mittens and

I can't feel anything.

You made me numb.

I editted th original phrase;

"I always wanted you to hold my hand but i can't feel anything anymore.

*something something* mittens"

I got it from Simpsons! haha!

2010-06-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

Work everytime also delay delay delay.
WHy th boss go overseas!?

Stalk me @ Braise ,Sentosa Palawan Beach!
It's a classy place for brunch and high-tea.

(: i know you guys wont go so far to sentosa one la.

Kizzez

2010-06-13T21:04:00.002+08:00

Wish me luck tomorrow, lovelies. (:

If th truth never set you free, do it yourself.

2010-06-13T19:15:00.002+08:00

Stop avoiding my questions regarding your promises!
Don't make promises and don't do it can?
You guys are my parents, you said you'll get me a phone 3 times.
But all 3 of those promises are empty.

2010-06-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

Wth is wrong with you?

Don't get green so fast.

Awesome me, la ^^ muahhaa

2010-06-11T03:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO! IM NOT TRYING TO BE BHB BUT JUST THAT I THINK...............
COMPARED TO TH LAST TIME TRUDY GOLD,

I have gotten so much prettier! ^^

Call me vain/bhb or whatever nonsense you people think i am.
But it's true rightttttttttttttttttttttttt ^^ for those who has seen how i looked last time.

Good looks attracts th eyes. Great personality attracts th heart.
( this is a nice phrase and definitely true.) right right right?

iBite.

2010-06-10T14:52:00.000+08:00

I update my private blog more than my public one!

I just finished my run and ccb, now i can't breathe very well!

It's been 20mins since i ended my run. I weak sia ):

Twitter is a ~~bitch~~! Always over capacity.

hen leiiiiii....

2010-06-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

I went to bestie's profile, there's a song until tmr by paramore.
I used to cry when i hear this song. now there's new song by evanescence that tears you up!

be patient? again?

2010-06-09T13:31:00.002+08:00

I must make most of my time! I dont wannt waste my time doing nothing at all at home!

Damn it, why am i so lazy to go to interviews?!

2010-06-09T02:32:00.000+08:00

I was thinking of my past.

How could i be so dumb to have been influenced by people?
And try to please people who're not worth it.
No, im not talking about relationships.

you cannot judge or critisize people who are improving themselves.
dont be selfish. dont take all th limelight for yourself.

random ya.

Dead or alive?

2010-06-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

Everyone has a point of time/period in life where we all feel like we wanna die.
Like you don't mind dying at all. Even though you know very well it's not worth it.
But you're just so sad that you don't care.

It feels like you wanna lose your ability to love so that you won't feel hurt anymore.

We all know how it feels like, right?

But, in th end you'll just find yourself pretty dumb.
haha.

Speak of th devil!

2010-06-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

Updated @ MHS.bs.com!

MY SISTER IS A SPOILED BRAT.
bloody hell, yesterday she took my diary and draw. My parents read it too.
WTF.

I don't like my sister but im obliged to love her.

yes, MHS stands for something. go guess it.